why do u always screw up?

messed up another race. and in the process disappointed mr Q, also again. why madan, why? wat was the 2 months of training during the holidays for? so tt EG and DY will b in front of u? is tt what mr Q wanted? can u please change your mindset? mr Q trained u well enough to be able to keep up with any pace they set. why do u still lag behind?
let's analyse his race part by part. no, let's start from the day before.

fri. sch finished at 11.30am. stayed back in class to finish up bio spa skill A homework tt was due tt day. finished and slacked there till like 12.30pm. went to eat. took quite long, not sure wat time finished. met Jo, Ja, BC. went with them to library, to chk the time of race next day and timings of ppl in 2004 nats. Ja and BC left while he was discussing with Jo abt expected timings for the race and "race strategies". blog surfed for a while. Jo was laughin at me (and madan). felt damn weird to have someone read ur blog in front of u. by the time went back down to canteen, 3pm. met R there. talked for a while b4 Jo left to play basketball. haha..race next day play some more lah.. but i shud look at madan b4 i fault anyone. he talked with R for like 2 hours before going for the briefing for dramafeste, rushing off to play floorball for half an hour, rushing back again to watch the plays b4 medfac1. then did his part in the medfac1 (carrying some wooden stairs on stage b4 the drama and off at the end). stayed back for results and watched some bands play to fill up time while judges decided winners. the 1st band, think it's banana split, was good. some indon scholars. the next one was...funny? lame? duno how to put it. their songs abt raw bananas, sweet potatoes and i duno wat else. u'll understand if u had been there. but i liked the violinist and flute player. they saved the band a little, in my eyes. results, medfac1 din win a single thing. in fact, both medfacs combined only managed to produce a best actress. wateva, thot the arts script wasn't even tt good. anyway, reached home at 11.30pm. ate a bit, went to bed at 12pm. wat a stupid mistake, to sleep so late.

sat. race day. woke up at 9am. ate breakfast. did a bit of studying. lunch at 1pm. wanted to leave house by 1.45pm. but due to "dilly-dally"ing, got to bus stop at 2pm. reached the turf city bus stop like 2.25pm. 5 min to reach where the x-ers were meeting. met the boarders on the way in. waited for one of the girls to come and ended up reaching the place at 2.45pm. haiz..can't even be on time, madan..wat kinda captain are you..wat sort of example are you setting? gave out number tags, pinned his own, got ready for warm-up. felt quite good during warm-up, except for the runny nose and a bit of cough. still didn't think much abt how to run the race. u noe the visualising part? it really helps him, but he just couldn't imagine anything for this race. another mistake.
and the race starts. felt tt starting was very fast. could feel lactic acid build up b4 hit the hill. he felt like stopping there and then. but was still able to stick with the lead pack comprising of mr Elan, EG, DY, Mo and a couple of MR-25 runners. up the hill was good. but lost all except 1 MR-25 runner going down, and coming out of the "forest" onto the track. but by the end of the long straight before the looping started, managed to get in front of him too. he actually held out his hand when madan was gonna pass him, like when you sub out in a match. and ya, so madan touched it b4 moving off. okie..tt was quite irrelevant. but how many ppl do tt to u in the middle of a race? it was his 1st experience getting encouraged by a fellow racer in this manner. ya, so was trying to catch Mo and the other MR-25 guy. at the 1st loop, was cheered on by some CJC guys, guys madan had met at previous races. dun even noe their names, except one. he was the guy hu madan nearly "killed" in the heats for his 2004 800m nationals. quite sad for the guy, from SJI at the time. madan stayed with him until last 200m, where he pushed until the guy couldn't take it any more. ok, anyway, getting back to the race. at the 2nd straight, he could see mr Elan, then EG after a while, turning at the loop at the end of it. waiting for DY to turn right after him, but he took a while too. next in line was the MR-25 guy and Mo. was catching up with them by the end of tt straight. was hoping to push until he caught them near the end, like his last interval on wed at macritchie with DY. was really dying. heard KM asking him to use his speed at the beginning of the last straight, get in front of Mo. he whacked as much as he could, considering the fast start. managed to get in front of Mo, was gaining on MR-25 guy. but not good enough. finished 5th. 15:08.

messed up another race. and in the process disappointed mr Q again. why madan, why? why do u still lag behind?